I have ripped it out and started re-knitting it seven times. I am on my eighth and I am feeling hopeful.
Also, here is what my circular needle library looks like:
In theory when I am using a set of needles I will mark on it the date and what project I am using them for... so I can find them again if I need them. Cross it off when they're free again.
I don't know why I have so many 4.5mms. Honestly, it's confusing. I can't even think of anything that calls for a 4.5mm needle that I've knit before. Sigh.